First off, I want to thank you all for your patience. Some of you may have noticed a lack of updates, delayed e-mail responses, and for current clients, galleries taking longer than usual. I debated a little on coming here to explain, but after some heart and soul searching, I realized it was the best thing for me to be honest and talk about what is going on. Also, I have found personally it a great help for me to write and share our experience.
In December my husband and I were overjoyed to find out we were expecting a baby. We told only a few close friends and family and went through all the emotions and excitement. I couldn't wait to come on my blog and announce our news here, but I knew it would be best to wait and make sure everything was going well first, as I did have a couple weddings around our due date that I needed to work with before then. In the beginning I ended up having a few complications and went to the doctor several times (we even got to see our baby's beating heart and took home an ultrasound picture!), but then the problems seemed to stop and for awhile things returned to normal, although we were still being monitored with weekly blood tests. Eventually, our news did get out more amongst a wider group of people (I live in a small town, so of course word travels fast!) and we were literally days away from officially announcing our news to the world.
We were supposed to just have a follow up ultrasound to make sure everything was going well but unfortunately at that appointment it was discovered our baby had stopped growing and there was no heartbeat detected anymore. Just to be on the safe side, they waited a couple more days and checked one more time, but everything was the same and we were told our baby did not make it. We were very sad but deep down I had wondered the whole time if something might have been wrong due to my earlier complications. We were thankful to have a little time to prepare but of course it doesn't make it any easier.
I have already had an AMAZING outpouring of support from our family and friends and it has been a great source of comfort. We are doing fairly well right now and looking forward to the future, but at this point I am taking some time off as I need to first go through some things and heal. I hope to get back to returning my huge backlog of e-mails and finishing up galleries as well as scheduling as soon as I feel ready to. I have a good feeling that will definitely help for me to jump right back into work--it's a wonderful distraction! But for now, I really just wanted to let you all know what was going on and explain why I've been so quiet lately.
On an even more personal note, I feel sharing this will let the world know our baby did exist and we ARE parents and take comfort in knowing that we are not alone and our baby is in a better place now!